But for good reasons! I swear!
Black's "Meet The Muse" interview is on hold, for the moment. Mostly because I have someone who would like to perform the interview, and the prospect of sinking into character for the conversation is a great idea. I'm eager to try it and see what comes of that approach.
And finding the time for that...well. It's going to have to wait a little bit.
The line edits for FOAT came in a couple days ago, and everything is taking a back seat to getting a handle on this. Getting it under control, making sure the alterations that need done are plotted and manageable, and making time to schedule the tandem writes with my partner in crime. Those things have priority.
I'm discovering that I'm one of those writers who can have many active projects on my desk, but can only work on one of them at a time. It was that way with the trunked novel. It was that way during Black's formative years. And it was that way with FOAT. Each project consumed my attention to the exclusion of everything else. I can switch back and forth between them, but that shifting of gears doesn't come as easily as posting a trot on horses with different strides. My sister envied me that natural sense of rhythm, when we were kids. Relax, and go with the flow. Feel it. I haven't developed that talent as writer.
Not just yet, anyways.
The other factor influencing all this is that FOAT is my first actual publication. There's a certain level of expectation (self-induced) and the associated stress. That voice in the back of my mind screaming, "Holy fuck, wench, don't screw this up!" My name's not the only one on this book. My reputation as a writer, as an author, isn't the only one on the line here. I want this to be great. I want this to be awesome. I want the story to be its best. Putting more pressure on myself than I should, and I know that. It's a learning experience. I'm feeling my way through something totally new and unfamiliar in every way. And at the same time, I'm doing it with someone who has more experience at it than I do. The last thing I want to do is trip up or otherwise hinder the efforts of someone else. I've never written with someone on a project of this caliber, this scope. So, a lot of firsts for me, all at once. And there are moments, many moments, when it's daunting. Overwhelming.
And as someone said of me recently... "Damn, for a writer, you kinda suck at communicating."
Yep. I do. Working on that. Haha.
Black's "Meet The Muse" interview is on hold, for the moment. Mostly because I have someone who would like to perform the interview, and the prospect of sinking into character for the conversation is a great idea. I'm eager to try it and see what comes of that approach.
And finding the time for that...well. It's going to have to wait a little bit.
The line edits for FOAT came in a couple days ago, and everything is taking a back seat to getting a handle on this. Getting it under control, making sure the alterations that need done are plotted and manageable, and making time to schedule the tandem writes with my partner in crime. Those things have priority.
I'm discovering that I'm one of those writers who can have many active projects on my desk, but can only work on one of them at a time. It was that way with the trunked novel. It was that way during Black's formative years. And it was that way with FOAT. Each project consumed my attention to the exclusion of everything else. I can switch back and forth between them, but that shifting of gears doesn't come as easily as posting a trot on horses with different strides. My sister envied me that natural sense of rhythm, when we were kids. Relax, and go with the flow. Feel it. I haven't developed that talent as writer.
Not just yet, anyways.
The other factor influencing all this is that FOAT is my first actual publication. There's a certain level of expectation (self-induced) and the associated stress. That voice in the back of my mind screaming, "Holy fuck, wench, don't screw this up!" My name's not the only one on this book. My reputation as a writer, as an author, isn't the only one on the line here. I want this to be great. I want this to be awesome. I want the story to be its best. Putting more pressure on myself than I should, and I know that. It's a learning experience. I'm feeling my way through something totally new and unfamiliar in every way. And at the same time, I'm doing it with someone who has more experience at it than I do. The last thing I want to do is trip up or otherwise hinder the efforts of someone else. I've never written with someone on a project of this caliber, this scope. So, a lot of firsts for me, all at once. And there are moments, many moments, when it's daunting. Overwhelming.
And as someone said of me recently... "Damn, for a writer, you kinda suck at communicating."
Yep. I do. Working on that. Haha.
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